I still regret it to this day. I was looking at my old files from when I was still fine and didn’t have pancreatitis. I realized I already had the answers; my only problem was that I was too influenced by my surroundings, thinking that listening to and following their commands was the right way to go.
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I already had the answers; there’s no excuse for not following them. I can even remember before my very first vaccination. I saw a video of a man from the UK trying to uncover why vaccines—at that time—might possibly cause serious side effects. Because my parents wanted me to get vaccinated, I went ahead and took the vaccine. I thought following orders was the right thing to do. I believed the government and the medical industry cared about our health.
It’s as if I wanted to feel really sad, but there’s no use since it already happened. I wish I could go back in time, but I can’t. As of now, there is no real cure for pancreatitis. You might hear about stem cells, but it seems that progress is being censored or halted. I don’t understand why they can develop a vaccine within a year for a deadly virus but can’t find a solution for pancreatitis. Is it because it’s a huge industry, and creating a cure for pancreatitis could lose drug companies a lot of income? I’m currently in a dark stage of my life. What could I have done to prevent this? STOP FOLLOWING ORDERS FROM OTHERS. THEY DON’T KNOW WHAT’S BEST FOR YOU. THEY DON’T CARE, AND YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE WHO TRULY CARES ABOUT YOUR LIFE.
I discovered that one of the side effects of the vaccine was pancreatitis. Why? Remember, the vaccine mimics the virus, and the pancreas is one of the organs that can become stressed when you are sick or attacked by a virus. The stress may have been too much for the pancreas, causing it to become inflamed. Thus, the vaccine produces pancreatitis.
That was just the first dose. What about the second? If I hadn’t gotten the second dose, maybe it wouldn’t have progressed to pancreatitis. Why did it happen? Writing this really crushes me inside because, even though I knew everything, I still let others—school and everyone around me—change my decision and take the vaccine. If only I had followed my own instincts, it could have saved me.
After my first dose, about three weeks later, the pain in my chest and back was gone. Maybe it was because it was still just the first dose. After a month, I felt fine. Then came the second wave of the test. In life, there are moments when it feels like everything is trying to crush you down and test you. For me, that was the moment. A new group of friends came into my life, and they significantly influenced how I viewed vaccines, slowly making me think that maybe the vaccine wasn’t so bad.
I strongly advise you: BE CAREFUL OF WHAT YOU HEAR FROM YOUR FRIENDS. If you have friends, constantly doubt their motives and what they say. always stick to your principles. In my case, I was really brainwashed. In my friend group, we had a friend who was religious, and their church strongly pushed the idea that the vaccine was bad. That friend fought against the school dean and staff who wanted him vaccinated, my friends—and sadly, I—were also trying convince him to take the vaccine, i can remember him just plainly saying no with a no movement with his head. I was brainwashed and forgot about what I had written in my notes. That guy was inspirational, and at the time, I thought he was the weird one. Now I realize he was the strong one because he fought the battle of the mind. People wanted to control him, but they couldn’t.
This brings me back to what led me to develop pancreatitis: the people around me forcing me to take the vaccine and convincing me it was good. I completely forgot about my notes that said, "DON’T TRUST OTHER PEOPLE, DON’T TAKE THE VACCINE." In July 2022, two weeks after getting vaccinated with the 2nd dose, that was when the pain took effect. In the morning, I felt pain on my side—I had pancreatitis.
People might say that my friends influenced me negatively. While it's true that pancreatitis can result from heavy drinking, I don’t drink heavily. tho now i learned heavy or not, 1 drink can really damage your organs. alcohol is a poison. now that time, I drink, but not all the time, and I never drink to the point of getting wasted. I drink to socialize, not to get drunk. So no, my drinking was not the cause, as I have never been a heavy drinker. It may have contributed, but without the vaccine, I may never have developed pancreatitis just from occasional drinking. This brings us back to the main lesson: never let your friends influence you when it comes to ANYTHING NEGATIVE from drinking or taking drugs into your body never ever listen or follow them. Always trust your own judgment; it can cost you your body.
Now I have this copium, which is really sad. this copium is saying, I feel like there’s a reason this happened to me, and I might become a voice for others to wake up and stand strong in both body and mind.
Is it possible there might be another version of me out there, in a different timeline, where I said, 'fuck these people, I'll stand by what i know because these people don't know shit.
