women are a waste of time and energy. they are absolutely the most. i cant even describe how. listen. I'll just say women. they will waste your time and energy. there's not an once of logic is with them. and what you're dealing is a really bad investment. what you gain is it will depend on the type you get but mostly it will become sexual. in my situation where my life is hanging. and my health is on the line. i absolutely am in a situation where everything exhaust me. what im trying to say is whatever you do to make everything great will be nothing to a woman and youll waste time and energy. and every bit of logic has gone out because of emotions. that is the most exhausting and time wasting thing in the entire history.

regret

there really comes a moment when. even if i feel i need to stick of being positive. you really cant deny how hard it is to accept you circumstance right now. my case was avoidable and the warnings were there and i thought i learned it but the devil really comes to you and tries to bring you to the worst way.

im living in a nightmare

i honestly feel like im living in a nightmare. who wants to be me rn? i cant even imagine how terrible if someone had a life like me. TERRIBLE. bad parents. bad friends. bad finance. bad experiences. just terrible and idk. i just feel like. its just terrible to be in my position.

Your defeat

Even the strongest has a weakness.

It pains me to see and read my old notes. my vision before was to spread the word and help the kids. and avoid them pain. but i never thought i was the one who needed my advice. ive always had it in mind my learnings but when new people came into my life and introduced me bad things that are against my learnings I forgot it. I forgot what I learned everything, my weakness before was I was too available, I needed a team a friend and I thought being there for them always and listening and following was the way. I was wrong, I've gotten to a bad situation of my life that was masked by a false happiness. it wrecked to return on my previous self that should've known the right ways. as I read my previous notes. I learned i knew it all along, i just had weakness they did and that was my eager to have a friend and a team.

Never forget what you learned even when there are new things coming always be aware of yourself.

true

Dems are weak people. most are women who are unstable and gay people who are unstable and weak beta men. and most are fine with their minimum wage. corporations support this because they prey on the weak, they can manipulate and control them easy. they make them their consumers. on drugs and poisons. let them stay weak and make them stay as a consumer. they do propaganda and lies to have them think the to cure to their illness are pills and poison.

Dont waste it

 

No one shouldnt tell you what to do. Government nor parent’s

Why i changed to trump and tate. Because of redpill realization media tries to change our ways. Tries to change our biology making us weak. And use their product as to cope. And needing to buy always those products. Youve been brainwashed. To buy stuff you dont need. And also tricked me to having a chemical that i dont need.

 

The damage is gradual

From poisoning water

Schools

Media

Deleting history

Food

Drugs

Only they wake up when damage is huge

 

Get rid
Porn - universe act
Alcohol - universe take over
Gaming - done won
Ocd
procrastination

If you have already a perfect body dont fuck it up. Some people wish they can be normal.

 

what men do get low testosterone these days is lack of women

to fix that. its easy. remove any gay media shit out of your life. 

 

bad timeline

I still regret it to this day. I was looking at my old files from when I was still fine and didn’t have pancreatitis. I realized I already had the answers; my only problem was that I was too influenced by my surroundings, thinking that listening to and following their commands was the right way to go.

 

I already had the answers; there’s no excuse for not following them. I can even remember before my very first vaccination. I saw a video of a man from the UK trying to uncover why vaccines—at that time—might possibly cause serious side effects. Because my parents wanted me to get vaccinated, I went ahead and took the vaccine. I thought following orders was the right thing to do. I believed the government and the medical industry cared about our health.

It’s as if I wanted to feel really sad, but there’s no use since it already happened. I wish I could go back in time, but I can’t. As of now, there is no real cure for pancreatitis. You might hear about stem cells, but it seems that progress is being censored or halted. I don’t understand why they can develop a vaccine within a year for a deadly virus but can’t find a solution for pancreatitis. Is it because it’s a huge industry, and creating a cure for pancreatitis could lose drug companies a lot of income? I’m currently in a dark stage of my life. What could I have done to prevent this? STOP FOLLOWING ORDERS FROM OTHERS. THEY DON’T KNOW WHAT’S BEST FOR YOU. THEY DON’T CARE, AND YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE WHO TRULY CARES ABOUT YOUR LIFE.

I discovered that one of the side effects of the vaccine was pancreatitis. Why? Remember, the vaccine mimics the virus, and the pancreas is one of the organs that can become stressed when you are sick or attacked by a virus. The stress may have been too much for the pancreas, causing it to become inflamed. Thus, the vaccine produces pancreatitis.

That was just the first dose. What about the second? If I hadn’t gotten the second dose, maybe it wouldn’t have progressed to pancreatitis. Why did it happen? Writing this really crushes me inside because, even though I knew everything, I still let others—school and everyone around me—change my decision and take the vaccine. If only I had followed my own instincts, it could have saved me. 

After my first dose, about three weeks later, the pain in my chest and back was gone. Maybe it was because it was still just the first dose. After a month, I felt fine. Then came the second wave of the test. In life, there are moments when it feels like everything is trying to crush you down and test you. For me, that was the moment. A new group of friends came into my life, and they significantly influenced how I viewed vaccines, slowly making me think that maybe the vaccine wasn’t so bad.

I strongly advise you: BE CAREFUL OF WHAT YOU HEAR FROM YOUR FRIENDS. If you have friends, constantly doubt their motives and what they say. always stick to your principles. In my case, I was really brainwashed. In my friend group, we had a friend who was religious, and their church strongly pushed the idea that the vaccine was bad. That friend fought against the school dean and staff who wanted him vaccinated, my friends—and sadly, I—were also trying convince him to take the vaccine, i can remember him just plainly saying no with a no movement with his head. I was brainwashed and forgot about what I had written in my notes. That guy was inspirational, and at the time, I thought he was the weird one. Now I realize he was the strong one because he fought the battle of the mind. People wanted to control him, but they couldn’t.

This brings me back to what led me to develop pancreatitis: the people around me forcing me to take the vaccine and convincing me it was good. I completely forgot about my notes that said, "DON’T TRUST OTHER PEOPLE, DON’T TAKE THE VACCINE." In July 2022, two weeks after getting vaccinated with the 2nd dose, that was when the pain took effect. In the morning, I felt pain on my side—I had pancreatitis. 

People might say that my friends influenced me negatively. While it's true that pancreatitis can result from heavy drinking, I don’t drink heavily. tho now i learned heavy or not, 1 drink can really damage your organs. alcohol is a poison. now that time, I drink, but not all the time, and I never drink to the point of getting wasted. I drink to socialize, not to get drunk. So no, my drinking was not the cause, as I have never been a heavy drinker. It may have contributed, but without the vaccine, I may never have developed pancreatitis just from occasional drinking. This brings us back to the main lesson: never let your friends influence you when it comes to ANYTHING NEGATIVE from drinking or taking drugs into your body never ever listen or follow them. Always trust your own judgment; it can cost you your body.

Now I have this copium, which is really sad. this copium is saying, I feel like there’s a reason this happened to me, and I might become a voice for others to wake up and stand strong in both body and mind.

Is it possible there might be another version of me out there, in a different timeline, where I said, 'fuck these people, I'll stand by what i know because these people don't know shit.

Sabotage

Your own head is reason of failure

your own head will sabotage you.

illusionss

You don't really have friends, you just have people with the same beliefs. once that's gone, it's over. it's people who think you have something they can have. in short, friendships are an illusion.

system

 the system has caused people to rely much on others like the government and corporations. the reality is we're all on ourselves. and all those leaders out there are all for their own greed. you must listen and have control of yourself and your life. do not be controlled by the system that you must follow and do, take and eat this and that. question the motives of everyone, people do not care nor those who you follow.

censors

Google in purpose made their search bad. you can not find anymore answers because it doesnt want you to learn and get the right answers, they want you to know that has no answers to it and you need to see doctor or pay something to know the answer or to be con by companies or you cant cause it doesnt want you to be knowledgeable. google works with companies to want you to stay as consumer, a sheep.

One of the reasons. medical companies pharma, paid google because people starting to know what to do than medicating themselves. they take away that power from people make the searches bad.

when you get to medical sites it doesnt tell the real reason, they tell its because of age its because you work too much. not because of bad food, or unhealthy life style. google and companies want you to be stupid and not know knowledge and they will try to hide knowledgeable people thats why you cant find anymore info in google

Media

It's crazy to think that i used to hate things that i hated before

I hated trump, i didn't like bitcoin and i hated fox. it was crazy just because i thought the media was enough, just because i thought cnn was enough and im all knowledgeable but in reality i was far from it. i had the know not to trust and to search for the true info first but never did i realized that a lot that i see and hear from the mainstream are lies and i got my emotions ahead of me. the hating of trumps also stems from me hating rich people. hating bitcoin stems from my envy. it was all emotion based and no facts or concreate info of why i was hating. it was all personal emotion plus mainstream media mind control.

I failed myself

the punishment

no distractions and before the year ends, i must have a monthly of 50k of income

no more distraction videos or video games. if it's not related to making money don't do it.